When you took your love away.
I know what’s coming next.
I can see it in your eyes.
God, please say I’m blessed.
Please don’t say goodbye.
Your picking at your skin
Like you don’t know to say.
And don’t know how I’ll react.
But this is your chance
to tell me the truth
and say that we’re through.
And it won’t end like you expect.
Because I won’t cry
I won’t die,
in front of you.
I’ll be calm,
I’ll be strong
so I can’t hurt you.
Cuz I don’t want you to hurt this way,
I don’t want you to feel this pain,
when you took your love away.
You start to open your mouth,
but no words come out.
You look up at me,
then look to the floor,
and then said “I can’t do this anymore.”
I just said ok, we had a good run anyway.
You look up in shock,
like you just got hit by a rock.
But I look you straight in the eyes and smile.
Because I won’t cry
I won’t die,
in front of you.
I’ll be calm,
I’ll be strong
so I can’t hurt you.
Cuz I don’t want you to hurt this way,
I don’t want you to feel this pain,
when you took your love away.
11:39 at night
It’s eleven thirty-nine at night,
and I sit here wondering
how everything can feel so right.
How I love being in your arms,
and how I don’t even know
how we got this far
But I do know….
That I love being with you
and holding your hand
have your arms wrapped around me
or just sitting in my van,
talking for hours
about pointless things.
Watching our movies
but you are my favorite thing.
I love the way you smile
and how you grab my hand unexpectantly
how you brush my cheek.
Put your fingers through my hair
and laugh at me.
You call me silly
you call me weird.
But I just wonder why
you ever chose me….
But for mE I know,
it’s everything.
That’s why I love being with you
and holding your hand.
Having your arms wrapped around me,
or just sitting in my van
talking for hours
about pointless things.
Watching our movies,
but you are my favorite thing.
Even when I do love you
Sitting here
all alone
waiting by the phone.
But you won’t call
It’s not your style
but I’ll sit here all the while.
And I know you don’t mean any harm.
So I’m going to throw on my charm,
and pretend like nothings wrong.
Cuz I don’t want to hurt you again.
I don’t want to hit nerve again.
It seems like that is all I do,
even when I do love you.
But honestly
I’m just scared
of being alone
without you.
You are my water,
you are my air,
you don’t know
how much I need you.
You have no clue how scared I am.
I’m afraid that I’m too weak.
I’m afraid that I’m not what you need anymore.
But I won’t say anything
Cuz I don’t want to hurt you again.
I don’t want to hit a nerve again.
It seems like that is all I do,
even when I do love you.
